I don't know what I'm felling right now.
I really don't know. It's vague. Am I sad? I don't know.
It's more like, I don't want to do anything today.
I don't feel like eating and It's not really me. I don't feel hunger. I didn't even eat rice today.
I want to take my medications even if the doctors told me to stay off medications for a while.
Based on my study plan, I have to study at 9:00 PM but my mind doesn't want to.
My mind tells me to turn my lights off instead and lay in bed and maybe cry for I don't what reasons.
Yesterday was like this too. I didn't eat that much.
I am listening to Geiko's Sol at Luna. It's peaceful and calming.
I feel a bit of hunger now but I don't want to eat. I just want to sleep.
I want to cry. I want to cry myself to sleep tonight.
My mind tells me to quit YF, like as in now. Quit.
My mind tells me to self-harm but I know I shouldn't.
Things are getting difficult again.
I am talking to strangers, again.
Yep, that negative coping that my counselor was trying to correct.
My mind feels like it is floating in thin air.
The song changed. No, actually I searched for it. Pusakalye's Kulimlim.
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