It's been a while since I write in this blog. I am giving myself a favor and try to lift myself up from all the downs I have. How life has been lately? Well.
1. I sought help for my mental health and I was clinically diagnosed with Depression.
2. I was prescribed to take an antidepressants for a month, to be followed by observation.
Antidepressants really helped me a lot with my moods most of the time. But there are moments that I have breakdowns but it was only about 3 or 4 times on that month. December 04 when I stopped taking antidepressants and my anxiety hit me. I had multiple breakdowns and I was thinking if did I depend on my antidepressants too much that when I stopped taking it, I have consecutive breakdowns.
1. Feeling sad without any reasons why.
2. Cried without any reasons why.
3. Insecurities taking a toll on me.
4. Emptiness and tiredness
5. Thoughts of Self harm
These things hit me. From December 04 up until now. Felt that 3 days straight already. I am planning to see my doctor tomorrow. Finals week but I have not been reviewing since I feel really tired and unmotivated with everything.
I am trying to get things fall unto their places. I am thankful I am still in the right mind to assess everything that is happening. My assessment about my steps on how I fight this is:
1. Opening up to people whom I think can be a good support system.
2. The moment I think of harming myself, I sent a text message to my bestfriend.
3. Distracted myself by doing chores.
4. Emotional Disclosure by Journaling (finally write this entry)
I hope to have a talk with my doctor tomorrow.
Keep fighting, self!
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