YOU: ENTRY 004

"Merry Christmas Bakla." 

At exactly 12:01 AM today, that's a message I received from you. You are the first person who greeted me. That was it. A plain greeting without any sweet message or cheesy lines because that is you; your personality; the straightforward you. 

Time check: 11:13 PM,

Date check: December 25, 2018

It's been 2 months since I wrote something about you and if you're going to look back on my previous post, it was about how grateful I am for having you as my bestfriend and you still are but the thing is, 2 days ago,  I started to romanticize everything about us. again. 

Okay na ako. That is what I'm telling myself because I know I was already okay about you being my bestfriend and not more than anything else. But 2 days ago, you came to visit me. A day before that, I was standing inside the train and was telling you through phone call that I am in Manila and if you have time, I'll pay my debt to you; your favorite Milk Tea and I can stop by at SM Manila. However, you don't have your classes that time so you stayed at home all day long that time.

You promised to visit me the next day because you keep on tooting your own horn that I missed you so much so you have to spend some time with me. I was glad hearing that you'll be the one who's visiting me without any special occasion at all or without any favor to ask. Then the next day, there you are, walking towards me in my house wearing comfortable clothes; you came all the way from Southern Metro Manila wearing  just a shirt, a short and slippers and came to my place. 

Date Checked: May 12, 2019

Yes, I was shocked too that  this thing I wrote for you has been sitting in my drafts for a long time. I tried to continue this writings but I couldn't and I wouldn't, because I can't force the feelings to show up again; that unfathomable thing in my heart  when I wrote this for you. Just like how I can't force that there's a tiny bit hope for the story of us to be aligned in the genre that I usually read in novels.